I suddenly feel apprehensive. Since they were born, I've only been away from home a handful of times. And never for this long. I hope they're not angry with me for leaving. My little miracles.

I give Ewan's hand a squeeze before walking over. Their beds are right next to each other, spaced apart by a night stand. For a few seconds, I simply stand in between the two at the foot, content on watching them slumber.

Then, I turn to one: Luke. There are tears in my eyes as I stroke his dark bangs out of his eyes. He looks like a little angel right now. I almost can't believe he's mine. I bend down to give him a kiss and take a breath. "I've missed you, Luke. So very much."

It's Nessa's turn now. But before I have a chance to say anything, or even to give her a kiss, a small voice interrupts the silence. In the dark, I see a silhouetted figure sitting in her bed. She rubs sleepily at her eyes. "Mummy?"

The tears fall as I sit on her bed and hug her. "Yes. Mummy's home now."