May. 7th, 2007

his_sarah_jane: (his girl friday)
Who has made you smile recently?

[ooc: Like so many other people’s responses this week, based on RP events. In this case, RP events are Milliways Bar related canon.]

Day 77, Journal 5.

He’s sleeping right now and I don’t dare wake him. We kept each other up late last night. Later than any other night we’ve spent together, I suspect. But it is all in good reason. An absolutely wonderful reason, I’d like to say, one that I never suspected and wish that I could play over again and again in my memories.

You see, he proposed last night. James asked me to marry him, and without hesitation I said yes. I said yes to something I had decided to never say yes to again years ago. I said yes and I didn’t think twice. I never thought that I was capable of doing that. Or feeling that sort of overwhelming joy that I thought only applied to those daft romance novels where the heroine swoons all over the man of her dreams.

I don’t like fancying myself one of those women, though. James… Oh, I don’t think he was the man of my dreams (to be honest, I doubt I ever had one), but he’s certainly become that. He’s become what I wanted in a way I never expected. He doesn’t have a blue police box or a barmy smile or a long scarf and silly hat. He has… a flat in London and a scarred past that still leaves him so vulnerable. But he has a smile that’s simply amazing those rare moments he shares it with the world. And whenever he shares it with me, all I can do is smile widely in return.

It’s only been two months – maybe a little more, and now we’re engaged. Honestly, I don’t know what I’m thinking. I have absolutely no idea how I’ll explain this to the Doctor. How I can even tell him that… it’s bloody ridiculous. This is bloody ridiculous. It’s not like…he’s the Doctor…but sometimes I wonder if I do see him that way. He makes me smile, much like James does. But a smile from James can last forever. A smile from him

That whole flipping train of thought is mad. I’ve crossed it out because it’s certainly the last thing I ought to be thinking right now. I meant it when I told James that he’s become the most important person in my life. This isn’t a time for doubts to come rushing in. It's a time to savour what I feel towards James, how much I love him and absolutely adore being loved by him in return.

Last night, James asked me to marry him. As silly as it might sound, that unexpected moment was one of the best moments in my life. The light in his eyes and the look on his face and the hope in his voice – I won’t ever forget any of that.

And most of all, I won’t forget how it made me smile. And how it’s still making me smile right now, hours and kisses and champagne bottles later.
his_sarah_jane: (laugh)
Who or what makes you laugh?

I don’t like clichés. I’ll tell you that now and I’ll keep by that until the day I day. But if I had to pick just one cliché, one motto to live by, I think that maybe - maybe - it would be that one that says laughter is the best medicine. Because it’s true, isn’t it? Seeing the irony in life, in the situation, the underlying note of humour that just makes you smile and twitch until it’s full blown laughter - that’s what makes you feel good. It’s what makes you feel alive.

That’s not to say that we shouldn’t go about making fools of ourselves on a day to day situation. But poking fun in the situation, taking the mickey out of someone for something absolutely daft? That’s how life should be lived. It’s how it should be enjoyed. I know first hand just how short life can be, just how precious every moment is, and how much it has to be enjoyed. And there really is no other way to show your appreciation but to laugh alongside your best friend.

So I wouldn’t say any one person or thing makes me laugh. It’s everything. It’s life. Life that’s just so simply wonderful that you can’t help but smile at its intricacies. Although on that note, I do have to say this:

Doctor? More than anything or anyone else, you make me laugh the most.

Thank you.

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