[The Ten Spot] Regrets

046. Things you wish you hadn't said/done.

I’ve never been fond of regretting the past. There’s too much to live for in the present and even more to look forward towards in the future. I wasted too many years after the Doctor left me wanting nothing more than to go back to that time and not moving on with my life as I should have. But I suppose we all have our own sources of remorse. I don’t want to think that I’m too proud to share mine:

1. If I had known what was going to happen, I would never have allowed Andrea to talk me into playing on that pier in Westport. I was thirteen and far too interested in holding my own than being smart. There was no way I ever could have possibly gotten to her fast enough to save her. We never should have gone.

2. It brought Josh into my life, but I do wish that I had never once mentioned anything of the future or time travelling to Duke Guiliano. I had no way of knowing he would write a book of ‘prophesies,’ placing me as the herald of said events. Perhaps the White Chapter wasn’t so bad, but I certainly could have done without everything the Crimson Chapter was responsible for. Especially Will Sullivan’s death.

3. Sometimes I still wonder what my life would have been like if I had never let the Doctor leave me behind. I could have stayed with him for so much longer. Those few years just don’t seem like enough at times.

4. I wish at times that I had never rowed with my parents as a child. It’s a rather silly wish, but my time with them was so short that in the end, every moment counted.

5. Whenever I put Luke, Maria, or Clyde’s lives at risk, I wonder if it really was the proper thing to do. They’re a stubborn lot and it is quite difficult to tell them not to do certain things. But if one of them was ever seriously harmed or, god forbid, died, I doubt that I could ever forgive myself.

6. I was almost married once, back in university, to a man by the name of Andrew Lofts. I thought that life would be wonderful, but it turned out he wasn’t the man I thought he was. Sometimes I wish I could have prevented myself from ever accepting that engagement.

7. There was an article I wrote once when I was starting out – a small investigative piece on an up and coming politician that ruined his career. I don’t think I’ve ever fully regretted it, but the look his wife and children gave me still haunts at times. Maybe I wouldn’t write the article, given the chance again, or maybe I would. Either way, it was at that point in which I really saw how my words came with consequences.

8. That Slitheen boy. I let him die. What sort of person does that?

9. For that matter, I wish I hadn’t ever killed - ever. I’ve seen too much death already; I didn’t need to be a part of it.

10. I wish I had never written this list. It really doesn’t do to dwell in the past. There isn’t anything you can do to alter it, and even if you did, the repercussions could be disastrous. I have so much still to look forward to. In the end, I believe this list was a rather pointless task that only serves to hasten one’s regrets.

[OOC] Milliways Plot Ideas

Pregnancy Plot
If 1 week Millitime(Real Time) = 3 week Bond!verse Time: This would make the baby due around 7 weeks from now, or just in time for Christmas (real time). This would make it due around March 23 Bond!verse time.

Baby born in hospital, not much of a problem. There is glee and everything is good. Waiting for that is over.

SJ going back to her world
Very basic - talks things over with aunt (maybe Fourth Doctor too?). Collects things. Maybe says bye to Harry. Goes back. How long she is gone probably will depend on my ability to get threads done. If wanting a worried James stuck with a baby, she can be gone for a while.

Moonraker
Same basic idea as last time. I would gladly NPC what's his face the badguy. Biggest difference is that they are married. I can see James going and telling Sarah to stay behind and watch Valerie. Sarah, of course, refuses. Leaves baby with someone (???) to go after her husband. Plot precedes as previously dictated.

Whatever Happened to Sarah Jane
(older!sarah = sja!sarah and younger!sarah = milli!sarah for easier designation)

Assuming you haven't posted Maria in after this episode, Kristin, I think this could be a really good one to plot. So, I think we all know the basics of this episode. Meteor coming to earth with older!SJ to stop it. Chaos alien decides to go back in time and make a deal with Sarah's friend Andrea where Sarah dies instead of her. Sarah and Luke (as Luke would not be there if not for Sarah) disappear from the world. Maria gets to figure things out. Alan and Andrea and Clyde and Maria's mum would need to be NPC'ed. So would the chaos alien.

Now, this is kind of the twist I wanna put on it. The way I see this whole parallel universe thing is that a new one forms from branches in time. It's one of the theories out there, but I totally can't remember it's name. Basically, it goes like this: there's a choice to be made - in one universe this choice happens and in another, it doesn't. But everything before that moment in time is absolutely the same for all parties involved. This would mean, using Milliways and SJA as an example, that the two universes came from younger!SJ's decision to open the door to Milliways. In Milliverse, she did and in SJA!verse, she did not.

So, alien goes back in time to make a deal with Andrea to swap her life for Sarah's in order to make older!Sarah disappear and not be able to stop the comet. But this would have repercussions as this point in time would be the same for every Sarah in every parallel universe that has made no alterations in her timeline to this point. So both older!Sarah and younger!Sarah disappear, as well as Luke and Valerie.

That means no one would have a recollection of her, except Maria as she did on the show. I don't know if Milliways ought to be a 'safe spot' cause of its magic (to drive people like James kinda crazy as he acts all single and people stare at him) or if it would be affected as well.

I'm still kind of working out the details and everything and lots of suggestion would seriously be welcomed on this plot if people are interested.

Frankie's Original Amnesia Plot
I remember you talking about that once upon a time. I can't remember all of it, but I remember that the gist is that he gets nearly killed or something and winds up losing his memories? It could be interesting if this happened while Sarah was away somewhere or something?

In Her Majesty's Secret Service
Okay, I admit to not know any more of this movie aside from 'Bond marries a chick named Tracy who then dies.' So I do not know how most of this would go down. But anyway, I am thinking that it could be interesting if James winds up thinking that Sarah (and maybe Valerie) get killed by the villain of the plot - only to find out at the end of it that they're still alive. And had just been kidnapped and their deaths fake to devastate James' life of course. Would need to actually go watch the movie or something to work out more details of this.

Something That Somehow Involves Luke and Maria
No. I have no idea what it is. Just throwing the possibility out there.


Anything else anyone can think of to keep both James and Sarah alive and kicking and from settling into boring domesticity that neither Frankie nor I really care to RP. Skipping through in time is also totally a possibility with me to have more missions and stuff occur and so that James' seven years as a double oh can be recorded.